A Year To Go
--- my journey continues ---
The start of a new year is a special season.
I spend hours and hours brainstorming and planning for the year ahead. I make drafts, make changes, decide on goals – maybe change them again – just to be ready and hit the ground running. And then …
The clock strikes twelve, and the motivation is gone. I wake up on January 1st and “don’t feel like it”. I have a slow start but then never get started. Or, as it was this year, I had a bit of a hangover.
And I felt like all the dreams of becoming a better version of myself had already failed. That I would not make it. I was not happy with myself, which led to even less motivation.
The next morning, ...
I reflected on the day in my 5-year journal. Afterwards, I read what I wrote the year before: bad start, failure, and so on. It was basically the same stuff (without the hangover). But I know that I made progress last year: I lost 12 kg, I explored Russia, I did well with my budget, and although I did not create the beginner course (and the corresponding website), I did well in my business. At the rear end were caring for myself, taking time off, and learning Russian. But even those goals were not total failures: I went on a workation, spent a lot of time in Tashara, which I enjoyed, and I learnt some Russian, and I know that it will stick at some point.
So, I do not give up – there are another 51 weeks!
And I will make myself proud.
Author
Britta
I have been an au pair, a tourist, an explorer, and a nomad – looking for nice places to visit and the one place I want to stay forever.